tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-302767455915995629.post3772379985032208006..comments2024-01-17T05:33:20.530-08:00Comments on Dan, in real time.: Floater DanUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-302767455915995629.post-56180572822147189972010-10-01T06:30:19.312-07:002010-10-01T06:30:19.312-07:00Yeah. I read "I have finished coping" -...Yeah. I read "I have finished coping" - my head continued "...for today." There is always a finite amount of coping I can do on any given day, and when it is gone, that's it. And what I have to cope with that day can use it up in a heartbeat sometimes. And sometimes I cope just fine with something, seeing his picture for example, or coming across some memento, and the next hour or day it just smashes me to the floor. It's so disconcerting, on top of everything else, not to know how I'll BE on any given day. Hard to make plans, HA! As if. I agree, the floater job description is very unfortunate. I hate having to describe myself "widow, etc." to anyone new. Life is hard enough with the same old people. <br /><br />Capture word: retreatAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-302767455915995629.post-4118181645802078592010-10-01T04:58:23.202-07:002010-10-01T04:58:23.202-07:00"I have finished coping." Yup. There doe..."I have finished coping." Yup. There does seem to be this weird ability to cope, to get through, and then, Done. Done trying and coping and breathing and being awake and conscious of it all. Hurled through every new day.<br />xomeganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10064483599165161879noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-302767455915995629.post-37869738798128434922010-10-01T04:05:05.878-07:002010-10-01T04:05:05.878-07:00it all takes so much more focus and emotional cont...<i>it all takes so much more focus and emotional containment than I often realize. </i><br /><br />...and energy. <br /><br />Perhaps there will be an opportunity for a position that is more fixed and will give you a greater sense of stability.bevhttp://magickcanoe.com/blog11noreply@blogger.com